Mbeekk, mmmbeeekkk

OMG 2 posts in one day? Astaghfirullah.. Bilala nk start on my assignments ni. But I cannot tahanla. I’ve been reading a lot of other people’s blogs lately. Strangers, mainly. Now I pretty much know a great deal about this one blog I’ve been reading, ntah cane ntah click sana here and there. But of course that person knows zilch about me. Unless she’s crazy and she tracks visitors and somehow loves my blog too? But maybe not. Hehe.

So, updates. I’m currently in the middle of my Easter break. Yup I’m already halfway through my first semester at Auckland Uni. Believe it. Number of dishes able to cook as of this moment : um countable. Heheh. Still brushing up on that! The PETSOW (LOL ;p) from Wellington came up to Auckland; Haz, Shaz, Sufya and Afiqah. Thanks for coming guys!! Sorry for any kekurangan dan ketidakselesaan dan keboringan while you guys were here. I had a lot of fun and I took more pics than the total number of pics I had in Auckland before you guys came! Serious! Maybe boring kot before this I only took pictures with Hoi Gi and the guys (itu pun tak banyak mana)

And Amir came as well. All the way from Melbourne. Love it when he’s around. Yea, most of the pictures are with him la kan, siapa lagi sanggup nak bergambar with me. And berjalan2 with me and be patient with my inabilities in cooking and my laziness in basically everything! Pathetic jap.

So what did I do with the Wellington people? When they first came I picked them up in a van near Sky Tower with K Rifhan and K Salwa. Thanks for driving us! =) Then K Fadhi cooked nasi minyak and ayam masak merah!! Fuiyoo! I was blardy impressed! Thanks a bunch. Hehe. The Wellies seem to like it. Takpe2. Nanti I belajarla ;p Then, we took pictures and stuff. I’ve uploaded some onto photo albums, if anyone is bored go and check them out.

Our activities takdela best mana pun to be listed down dengan penuh detail, basically I took them shopping2 and tour Auckland. Boy we did A LOT of walking. A piece of trivia: a journey of 10 minutes or so on the bus equals an hour and a half walk for mere mortals like moi! Adoi mak. Shh, for those in the know. LOL. I wanted to take them to Paradice to skate like I did a couple of weeks ago but the day that we planned to go it rained, and there were other drawbacks as well. And plan nak bawak them up to One Tree Hill or Mt Eden tak jadi due to transport problems. Too bad. Maybe when I buy my own car alright? =) And we cooked a lot too. Well the quantity and quality wasn’t much but we sure had fun kan kan!

The Wellies went back on Wednesday, their classes start today. Hehe. Mine starts next Tuesday! Thank God, I so need to start working on my assignmentS, like Hoi Gi here behind me. She’s so hardworking. When am I gonna be inspired by her? Sukati saya la. So what else did I do last week? I spent time with my beloved Amir..=)

I didn’t fully realize how much I missed having him constantly with me 24/7 like we used to be back in Taylor’s. We did everything together back then. Naik bus, classes, breaks, everything together. Dinner, lunch, supper. Study, movies, shopping, EVERYTHING! Inseparable. I can’t believe how his 9 days stay here flew by so darn quickly!! Bap bap (ehem) we’re heading to the airport at 5 am to catch his 830 flight.. Of course, I cried. He cried too ;p

Airports are just a sad place. Except on 15th April the other day and soon, when I’ll go to Melbourne for my winter break. Can’t wait!! I’ll be going to MASCA as well, if luck is not with Amir and he doesn’t represent Melbourne to Canberra nanti, we’ll just visit those Canberra kids: Nada, Aimran, Firdaus and maybe head to Sydney! Which I’ve heard is great for shopping… Hehe

Aiyoo.. thinking of shopping makes me depressed la because I am so broke! BROKE!!!! Mana nak korek wanggg!!! I think I wanna fast every day now until I go to Melbourne. Hmm.. macam hot2 chicken shit. I’ll try anyway.

But right now I am so addicted to Mohd Amir Affiq Marzuki.. We had a bit of a misunderstanding while he was here.. Typical problems.. I’m the one to blame… I’d like to extent my most heartfelt apologies to my sweetheart and hope he will forgive and forget whatever happened. Really really really really can’t wait for my finals to be over so I can head there as soon as possible! OK I’ll go and pray now. And thanks to you, reading my blog up to this point! I’ve recently realized that most of my readers [cece, macam dah ada fanbase ngahaha] are the type of people who don’t really leave comments so now saya rasa lega even though my blogs don’t appear as famous as others who have gazillions of comments on their posts sampai muak gila baca. Yes, I read those too! Yes, it appears that I am very carefree although assignmentS menggunung tinggi! OK off I go now. Good luck with classes, to those who’ve already started! Tata

24th April 1986. Exactly 2 decades ago, Awalludin and Soleha were granted their very first newborn, who grew up to become this hot chickpoodah! teehee~

I can’t believe how she’s grown up! When we were small she used to be really.. umm different, hehe. She wore glasses, skinny to the point that people would feel sorry and think that we were poor and couldn’t afford food, shy, nerdy ehem hehee and so incredibly garang!! She hit me on my head sampai benjol when were small dulu2! Serious! There’s a picture of me crying with a huge plaster on my forehead somewhere. But that was in London dulu. In our tweens; on weekends she would get really mad at me for reasons that I could not fathom to this day, just for me waking up when I see she’s awake. She would glare at me and say "Sebok je Kimah ni!!" And we fought all the time over everything and she used to hit me a whole lot. Well we were a pretty aggressive bunch. Shuhada hits all of us; Me, Amad, Nadira, Amirah sket2. I scream and merengek most of the time. But Shuhada was the garang one, that I surely remember.

There was this one time all of us in the family forgot her birthday, I’m not quite sure when. But we were in the living room when Shuhada told my parents that that day was 24th of April, her birthday. Both my parents gasped cos they totally forgot about it and as for me I was small, didn’t remember stuff like that back then. I felt so incredibly sorry for her but there was nothing I could do, ahh cerita sedih sebijik. I can’t recall what we did after that though. Maybe tak celebrate kuat2 sgt kot. I don’t have pics of those dark times in this laptop, as what we used to call them. When both of us weren’t so hot and we went to SKTP. Haha. So anyway look at how she’s turned out!

My sister is now hot and incredibly gedik!! She’s the gedikest person I’ve ever known! Well actually there are others who are astoundingly more gedik than her but I’ve never gotten the chance to really get to know them personally. So anyway, she’s also quite dim-witted in my opinion. Huhhu. Her blurry traits are still mantained. She’s got a lot of admirers too! But now she’s happy with Abe =)

And Shuhada, I am truly sorry that I haven’t been very fond of your loved ones. Maybe I’m just not ready to really let you go or something. I’ve never told anyone this but one day when I was in STF my friend told me her sister is getting engaged and all. She reminisced about all those times when her sister was still dating that husband of hers and now they really are getting married! And that time you were kinda serious with your current boyfriend and suddenly I was struck with the idea that you weren’t gonna be around all the time.. Times when I come home from STF or wherever I’ll be in the next few years.. It struck me that some day you’ll soon become someone’s wife and become theirs and never will be home again to take me out shopping and mkn2. I guess that’s why I was so pissed off whenever you went out and came home really really late. It didn’t help that you’d always disturb my nights by talking on the phone the night away in that voice of yours which melts any man but sends shivers up my spine! Haha. Btul. Geli gilaaaa. But oh well that’s you I guess. And I’ll love you for whoever you are, because you’re my sister. Unconditional love.

As a birthday present, semua hutang2 you dilangsaikan. LOL. Now I don’t need RM, I need NZDs!! Heheh. But I did get you something really nice over here, but I don’t think I’m gonna post it, because postage sangat mahal! Some people memangla akan post, but come on, think of all the other things I could buy you with that postage money! Hehe. So, cheaper gift or more expensive giftS? Hehehe. Plus berapa ribu kali must I ask for your address? Can’t send anything YET la camni

This post is getting tiringly long. I’d love to add more about stuff we’ve been through all these years.. I’ve known you for 18 years! But I’ve got tons of assignments to finish which I haven’t touched yet! Agh! Yela kan, honeymoon last week. *sigh* Teehee ;p

And for Nadira, Happy Belated Birthday to you too. Hope you’re having a blast with all your new presents! Of course, your now broke sister did buy you something and again I’ll pass it when I come back okie? MmmmUahh! xoxo

Regal occasion for school
KOH JING JEH
KUALA LUMPUR, Feb 20
Johor Baru’s Sekolah Tun Fatimah (STF) will mark
its golden jubilee with sports, a fund-raiser,
fun-fair, royal banquet and other activities from
March 26 to early July.

The all-girls boarding school is inviting its
alumnus and former staff to take part in the
celebrations.

The activities, launched on Saturday, are jointly
organised by STF, Old Girls Association or
Srikandi Tun Fatimah (SKTF) and Parent-Teacher
Association.

The main focus is the setting up of the Dana
Srikandi fund. It hopes to raise RM500,000 for the
schools programmes through a futsal tournament,
charity dinner, royal banquet and carnival.

On the drawing board are a treasure hunt, golf and
bowling competition.

The money will be used to upgrade school
infrastructure besides helping needy students.

SKTF president Prof Noriah Mohamed said it would
be the grandest event held by the school to mark
its 50th year of existence.

On March 26, a futsal tournament will be held at
Sunway Sports Planet, Bandar Sunway. Twenty
womens teams and 10 mens teams made up of
boarding school alumnus will take part.

On April 1, SKTF patron Tengku Puan Muda
Pahang,
Tunku Azizah Aminah Maimunah Iskandariah
Sultan
Iskandar, will attend the fund-raising royal
dinner, Makan Malam Perdana, at Sunway Lagoon
Hotel Convention Centre.

On April 22, a treasure hunt will be staged in the
Klang Valley.

A Back To School programme will be held in June
in which the seniors will motivate students.

In early July, a proclamation at the school will
be graced by its patron, Johor Sultanah, Sultanah
Zanariah Tunku Ahmad,.

Noriah hoped that all Srikandis, including those
who attended the first classes in Durian Daun,
Malacca, will attend the event.

They will join Sultanah Zanariah and other royal
family members, who are SKTF members, including
newly-wed royal couple, Tunku Bendahara Johor
Tunku Abdul Majid Idris Sultan Iskandar and former
TV3 corporate communication manager Tunku Teh
Mazni Tunku Yusof, for a royal banquet at the
school.

This will be followed by a carnival at the school
compound with about 40 booths selling various
items.

STF, formerly known as Sekolah Menengah
Perempuan
Melayu, was based in Durian Daun before it moved
to Larkin, Johor Baru, in August 1962.

School principal Halimah Shaaban said most of the
students then came from villages.

She said those who graduated since 1963 had been
big achievers with many becoming lawyers,
doctors,
broadcast personnel and corporate personalities.

For details, contact SKTF secretary Molly at
012-2344331 or visit www.stfoga.org.my

NAK PEGIIII!!

btw, firdaus, if you ever happen to read, highly unlikely, is your Mum the president? hehe. prof noriah tu

Hazwani, I just read ur blog, and I feel inspired to write one of my own. yes, u can call it TIRUUUUU!! but so what.

ive officially passed my 1st week as a uni student, a first yr engine student, be it gen eng, at least its a step closer to being one. but it was alright. had 4 subjects, 15 hours per week, this first week involved listening to boring lectures, im very ashamed to admit that. thank god we didnt get any major assignments yet. i remember in taylors i had a super good vibe during lectures, ooops classes, because the teachers were just so great. wait i might be making that up, since after ive been through everything sure as hell i do miss it, and reckon it to be the best classes ive ever been through, now that i look back on it i always wanted to skip class, if it werent for the realization of my responsibilities. so bla3,

on to more "juicy" stuff, my classes. so: four subjects, my 1st class was introduction to engineering design, ENGGEN 115. bla3.. intro2, basically it was a class about designing. which is something i clearly do not have an iota of aptitude in. i reckoned this wont be a subject im goin to enjoy. ugh

then, we had a tutorial for eng mechanics, ENGGEN 121, but of course there cant be a tutorial when theres no lecture. so off we go. balik. monday best, there’s only 2 hours of class. ada breaks lagi. so relaxing. unlike those welli ppl, ada ke classes like budak darjah 2 [kalau budak darjah 1 melawati as far as i know dier start pagi tau], tak tahan man.

ok.. the following day, agh bosan la nk state one by one. in short, the other 2 subjects i had were; ENGSCI 111: math modelling 1 and ENGGEN 140: bio & chem. math modelling is self-explanatory, math concerning real life situations, i reckon its gonna involve some of maximization/minimisation stuff we did in sp mth. bio & chem is a new subj they introduced to us eng students this yr, but from my few 1st classes its more on.. well, bio & chem topics in the more applicable aspects of engineering. so thats it. i heard melb students taking chem eng had to take up to 27 hours per week? oh man gile takde kehidupan? wee its fun to be in auckland =)

but seriously im loving it here. food is good, the catered one we get every weekdays for dinner, its something i look forward to after uni, then.. um what else. im still new to shopping, queens street pun tak habis jelajah! its kinda like bukit bintang back home la. busiest street, byk shops, best la. but i have yet to go to a shopping mall. they say this one place is nice, dress smart, its in onehunga. maybe im goin soon? if someone would be ever so kind to drive me there? hehe 

and.. what else. the wheather’s nice. sejukk. i like. in malaysia, i still remember this one day when we had to walk to sufya’s car, super hot that day, and i’m like, "waaaah bile nk smpi auckland ni?? panas GILA msia!!" very gedik la that time. and banyak lagila occasions in msia that u KNOW u cant find overseas. eg, loitering. people in msia tak boleh tengok one place cantik sikit. mesti nk hang around, doing nothing, dating, do random stupid stuff. here, the nice places really are nice. there’s less people, u rlly get to enjoy the place and not feel.. sesak or nethin, and in the secluded spots u wont find couples snuggling up cosily despite bertudung and whatnot, oh wait in uni sometimes. domain lagila. theres only veterans drinking wine in the middle of the afternoon. i cant even see one single couple! ni ada perasaan nak taint ni. hehe =) ok well i did see one couple, i think, but maybe they werent as obvious as orang melayu di taman yg berjiwang, which is quite menggelikan which makes u notice them even more, so.

but nak cerita ni, the other day the seniors brought us up to one tree hill on our way back from coromandel [k dinie, IVE BEEN THERE! haha] and i rlly liked it up there although its past midnight, C-C-C-C-COLD.. although they say its only 18 degrees [i didnt buy it tho, i felt it was more like 2 or so], i felt like dying, cos maybe i wasnt acclimatised or somethin. today was actually colder, but i felt just fine! hope winter wont be too cold. and there were cute little kambing biri2 running around! pat-pat-pat. cute gila jln2. but we couldnt rlly chase them or anythin, cos its the middle of the night yg gelap gelita. but theyre cute. plus i dont think their fleece is as white as snow, it looked pretty unclean and spotty.. but one tree hill is basically a place to enjoy the view of auckland, at night it looks so.. flat and bigg! lotsa lights here and there. if it was a starry night it wud be even better. oh oh, on our looooong and freeeezing way back from coromandel the nightsky was beautiful.

*starry starry night*flaming flowers dat brightly blaze*swirling clouds n violet haze*reflect in vincent’s eyes of china blue*bla3..

ok what else did i do first week. oh yea yesterday in design tutorial we were supposed to construct a box from a4 paper with maximum volume, with certain constraints of course. the best way would be to make a cube la kan but i didnt rlly manage to accomplish that. another observation, the kiwis look so handsome and so.. matsalleh that you rlly dont expect them to be rlly rlly smart. for me in this case. oh wait, i have met someone like that tapi itu org melayu la. so basically what im saying is since the kiwis look like the actors i see on tv i perceived them as not being very bright when actually they could be a genuine smartypants with an exceptionally out of the box way of thinking. stereotyping people. very bad.

ok, classes out of the way, now we’re done. what else did i do here in auckland? tons of stuff.. met a whole bunch of new people that i could barely remember. trying hard to! lotsa nice activities here. for instance, catch up on some sleep. last night was tiring. and stressful. but i do forgive you, dont worry. *trust*

This is something I should be doing, considering the end is near. well, my stay in Malaysia that is. So, for those who still doesnt know, i’m leaving for Auckland University, New Zealand, will be taking chemical and materials engineering for 4 years, insyaAllah; of course i wont be staying there for all 4 years, confirm i’ll be back punya. ntah2, after a few months dah balik dah. but i’ll try not to though. i stress try not to.

people ask me, "kim tak takut ke? apa perasaan? excited? dah ready blum?" truth is me and the rest of the pet ‘05 forecast batch have been fed with the idea that we’re goin overseas [and some deluded with fanatic ideas of australian unis, and in some rare cases nz unis, ehem2, but what to do], so basically the idea have been implanted there that it really is not very exciting. in fact, it’s just like, naik tingkatan or darjah or something. you know it’s coming, you have an idea of what’s it gonna be like, only with going overseas there’s all the hype, visa, med checkup, bla3. dont even get me started on the shopping one has to do to go overseas. everything pun nak beli. and when ur done with all the shopping [not exactly, its more of a lifelong journey], you appreciate even more all the little things that made life in Malaysia your home. even a stinky ktm can become solace, you appreciate the cool blast of its aircond, you’re no longer stressed out over the traffic jams and take the time to appreciate the surroundings, you use the public toilets and suraus with absolutely no feeling of disgust, you eat all kinds of malaysian food that you never really bothered to eat before, you look at people and feel a profound sense of wonder that all of them are so.. uniquely Malaysian. everytime i look at tourists i wonder if they’re feeling ever so lonely and wished they were back home. when i was at beijing there wasn’t a day when i didn’t at least once wish i was back at home.

and the people you love most, well. talking about certain things can bring tears to your eyes. [i dunno, guess in my case tho] say, an argument broke out, you cry hours afterwards because you fear that it’s gonna be the memory of you arguing that they remember. padahal benda kecik je tau, like berebut kuay teow ke ape ke; terasa hati tak reply msg ke ape ke, terignore once in a while, tak angkat phone, etc. you treasure the moments with them. you start to remember little things about them. how their mouth sometimes twitches when they talk about certain things, or the exact position of a dimple when someone laughs, the way they walk that just drives you crazy, the way they annoy you but you never could get mad at them. you want to keep them there, forever, just like that. but you can’t. everybody moves on, sooner or later.

so before i ramble on any further, i would just like to say thank you for being one of my friends, i’m a big believer in everything you do affects everybody else around the world, so obviously you existing placed me where and how i am now. if you’re on my friends list and you read this you obviously somewhat care for me. and i care for you too, just that i dont show it.. very often. haha. but i’m not asking for a farewell message or anything. just to let you guys know that i really do appreciate your presence, no one is insignificant, it’s just a matter of ego, and how we show it. ok i’m gonna cry myself to sleep now. tata.

Since Aimran told me to write, here I go. Um actually tak tahu ape nak tulis. God my mum is cranking up the TV so loud I can’t hear myself. Ya Allah suara ustazah ni kuat nak mampus. Like mic kat depan mulut pon obvious menjerit. Astaghfirullah Hakimah jahatnya anda. Ok so anyway, ape point ni? Oh ya, persoalan of the day: aimran ade girlfren? tapi tanak bitau, podacit. haa kan dah publicize gile2. its ok, i understand he might be kidding.

And I lied to some people yesterday, since I told them I would be back last night when I didn’t. This is what happens when I’m at home. Everything is forgotten. Waa. Lagi2 now I’ve started Pokemon again. I know, dat is so 2002. Best gile! Addicted kembali. I feel so young. Haha. Ok now I gotta go. Kwn baik sudah online =)

I want to write in my blog a lot like some of those people out there, ade je updates in my inbox. But it’s okay, I do like reading about other people’s lives. So. About mine. This weekend as usual balik rumah. My sister is home. She’ll be going back a few hours from now, gonna miss you sis. And she told me about some stuff that’s been going on with her, and as much as I would like to tell her that I’m right, you shouldn’t go on thinking this way, I know what you should do in these times, you gotta do as I say! And blablabla. I know it sounds so bossy but previous experiences have proven that when it comes to arguments in the bedroom the probability of me being right is significantly larger, which even she has come to admit herself, but those were mostly stupid stuff. So then how come I really don’t know what to say to her about this one then? The old me would say something totally me, but now there’s another nagging me saying what if she’s right? Who am I to say she’s wrong with this one? How can it be totally right for me when I’m saying it’s wrong for her? The situation hits too close to home. My heaven. I’ve undergone a photochemical reaction, catalyzed by my sunshine. Yup. So I’m just gonna see what I will end up being in the end. 

Among other things, I was in a really bad mood yesterday, I’ve noticed that I always get that way whenever I buy stuff with my family. I never could relax, huh? Shuada says I need help. Anger management. Seriously macam nak beat someone up, curse like a sailor, scream like a maniac and just roll around on the floor crying. God I’m becoming so Ally on this. And it didn’t help that I gotta help Mum dat nite, and I guess that just pushed my button to its breaking limit. Fuh. Thank God for open-24-hours restaurants.

The trial results from Taylor’s came in the mail. It was kinda fast, unlike STF. Of course, the distance factor.

"Hmm, Kimah, ape teruk sangat result ni?"

"Haa, yang mane satu ni Ma?"

"Yg trial tu la"

"Ish Mama, that doesn’t count in my final marks la, dier saje je nak get us used to the 7 am paper and the 3 hour duration of the paper, plus the teacher also mentioned that not many students get good marks during this one, and they also mentioned that we usually get better marks for internal, eh Mama, lawa butang baju! Oh ya, Kimah nak naik atas mandi jap, nanti I come down nak announce something fun! Yay! I’m gonna be famous!"

"Wow what news Kimah? I can’t wait. Everyone, Kimah got good news!"

The power of persuasive communication. No wonder people are studying it. And that’s why I wiggle more out of her than the rest of my siblings put together.

Speaking about exams, my finals are coming up. 5th raya. Waaaa. Another year not maximised. The last raya I’ve enjoyed to the fullest pon 2004 kot. Chet. The next one, after I get my degree. And it’ll be me giving away the cash. It’s not fair! I don’t have enough experience in receiving them! Aaaa!

And there’s also the sad part, about leaving my heaven. In Ridzuan. I spent a lot of good times there. Thanks, to everyody who made my life slightly more interesting. Through all the laughter and tears. Hmm. Tickets to Terengganu how much? Idzani drive me there jom? Our sayangs are both there what. HAHA =)

Eh but I’m really serious, sape nak gi nanti bitau tau. Haz nak gi jumpe faris nanti hit me back or something, we can go together perhaps.  Ok now saya mahu tidur.    

If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
We always had time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've gotta make it last

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday

If you leave, I won't cry
I won't waste a single day
But if you leave, don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've gotta say you will

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday

day, day, day

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday

(ha, ha, ha, ha, ha)
If you leave
if you leave
Don't look back
Don't look back

Sometimes, I really despise myself, for the fact that I can be so obsessive. All those songs, all the times I wasted reading up everything I could possibly get, I’m insane.

What a sad sad song.

Anyway, I’m thankful for the wonderful friends I’ve got. Is it possible to have the friends you have now sampai tua? Everybody says "kawan sampai matih!!" [stf style] but then you know in your heart that’s not true. In the end I’ll only have my family to depend on.

My friends, I don’t ever wanna lose you guys k? This is my eternal sunshine. This period. My heaven.